My weekend

Blissful weekend...

After one week of communication-less with people (colleagues aside), I went back to my old place to have a de-stress session. Since it was drizzling, I had to wait for Mr. Chairman to finish his work and then hitch a ride all the way to where I used to stay. Everybody was pleased to see me.

'Ah, you. Let's go dinner.'

On normal occasion, I would balk at the idea. Dinner is almost non-existant in my dictionary. Lunch is the good ol' strawberry yogurt. It must be strawberry. Too bad they don't have chocolate yogurt. But hey, it would defeat the whole purpose, isn't it?

So dinner we had. For someone who had starved herself for most days, it was a lavish affair.

My housemate wanted to eat siakap masak stim (steamed siakap). I was dying for tomyam ayam with lotsa mushrooms. And another housemate insisted on a balanced diet, so we ordered sayur kailan ikan masin (kailan with salted fish). For appetizer, we devoured the whole basket of otak-otak. This is the main reason why I felt that prolonging the decision to move back to the Land of Hornbills are fully justified. Dinner outing is one mind-blowing experience to me :)

We ate to our heart's content. The steamed fish is deliciously done. My sense picked up every essence of the taste - sour & salty, with a tinge of sweetness of the fish flesh. The kailan wasn't that bad, except it was cooked in the truly Malay-style - lotsa oil. The most mouth-watering would be the chicken tomyam, hot but not too hot, the chicken pieces hidden by all the mushrooms (the way I like it).

That nite, I slept soundly, all basic needs had been satisfied (good company, good food, cozy mattress).

Sunday came.

As my dearest chum woke up late, we had a late exploration of the day. We had lunch at Pak Ali (famous for the crispy fried mushroom-on-a-stick and the bomb price they charged for it). Then I wanted to survey for new spectacles (I'm going frameless again). After draining my pocket at the optical shop where I did my current specs, we went to our usual hanging out place - Jusco.

The place was bustling with frenzied shoppers. We merely enjoyed doing what we do best - window shopping, trying out clothes, and have a Japanese experience (do I love wasabi?). Wasabi is unique. I normally hate spicy, hot things. However, I fell head-over-heel with wasabi. It's only to be consumed by the brave-heart. And if I swallowed too much of that thing, the person to me would get the hardest thumping in their life. The burning sensation does not linger on your tongue, it travels up to your nose, your eyes, your brain... I just love that green stuff.

And who am I to deny my heritage? I'm a Melanau, for cry-out-sake! We eat raw fish. Raw salmon included.

Tired of looking around, we decided to head back to good ol' apartment. Lying down, watching tv, from Hindi movie, to documentary on 'limau madu'. I laughed non-stop when the commentator who obviously byheart his speech, accidentally let out his own Kelantanese dialect - 'bebah dari penyakit.' And my housemate (a Kelantanese) roared in laughter too. 'Mesti cari dier balik Kelate nanti.' She commented, after the laughter subsided.

I stayed at my old house until after Maghrib, and then went back. Ah, well. Next week some friends are coming down from KL to meet me, and I'm looking forward to their visit :)

Kedatangan Tan Sri

Semua orang kat opis excited giler bila tau shareholder kiteorang nak datang. Mana yang bersepah dieorang kemaskan. Memang excited la tu.

Termasuk la aku. Dulu aku penah involve dalam satu projek wat documentary pasal history dier n yayasan dier. Dier memang orang yang aku kagumi.

Dah la jutawan, dermawan, usahawan n semua yang 'wan' yang kat belakang tu dier boleh sapu. Tapi paling mustahak sekali, dier sorang yang betul2 patuh perintah agama. Seorang jutawan yang soleh.

Bila dier datang, tak de sapa yang tak terpegun tengok dier. Dressing dier selamba je. Tak de la pakai kot n neck tie. Then, dier murah ngan senyuman. Daripada cleaner opis, tea lady, eksekutif ke manager, sumer dier sedekahkan ngan senyuman manis dier.

Dia lalu belakang meja aku, n aku memberanikan diri tegur dier, 'Assalamualaikum, Tan Sri.' Dier pun jawab, 'Waalaikumussalam.' Waah! Terasa melayang sekejap bila dia jawab salam aku :) Memang best la dier nih...

Tapi yang paling aku tak expect, bila dier blah, sumer orang berebut2 masuk bilik meeting nak amik botol air mineral dier, kuih lapis & karipap atas pinggan dier yg dier tak makan! Memang kagum tahap melampau la depa nih ngan dier! Sapa2 yang salam ngan dier plak sibuk bagitau sumer orang pasal tu, n cakap dieorang kompem tak nak basuh tangan malam tu!

Terasa seronok berjumpa ngan Tan Sri arinih. Dier nih baru boleh aku nobatkan sebagai 'Malaysian Idol'. In fact, he is my idol. :)

Dillenia call pagi tadi.

'Bila kontrak abis?'
'Ujung bulan September nih. Apsal?'
'Ada vacancy kat tempat kite. Exec, Planning & Research.'
Hmm... Bunyik macam Marketing Exec je.
'Department aper?'
'Business Development.'
Sah. Memang kene wat research marketing nih.

Dill suruh submit resume kat dier. Aku pun forward kan jelah. At the same time, aku nak mintak kat tempat lain gak. Anywhere in KL. Walaupun dok JB best lagi daripada dok KL, tapi demi future aku, kena gak buat the big decision.

Suddenly I'm looking forward to leave this place.

'We want to help u. When u just walked off, we felt offended.'

Nasib baik aku tak baling cup berisi Coke tu kat dinding. Dah la sakitkan hati aku, anggap aku nih bermasalah sedangkan dieorang tak penah amik peduli apa yang aku cakap selama nih.

Beberapa hari sebelum tu, aku penah tulis dalam email kat depa nih sumer,

'I dun like people pushing me to know my problem. Usually I'll just say 'I'm fine' if I'm still considering whether I wanna tell or not. I will only tell if I'm ready to tell.'

Selang beberapa hari pastu, dieorang buat exactly apa yang aku tak suka. Bila aku still tak nak cakap (dah la dah hot giler2 masa tu, still tak bley faham lagi), boleh plak nak terasa ngan aku. Ikhlas sangat la nak tolong cam tu.

'Ur intention may be good, but what u guys did to me, really hurt me. I felt like some animal trapped in the corner, I couldn't believe u guys did that to me.' Aku jawab.

'Meby u can forget abt it. Just act normal.'

Aku plak yang kena berbaik2 dulu ngan dieorang? Sapa yang antagonize sapa in the first place??

Nasib baik Coke dah abis.

Lirik Lagu Wonderful (Everclear)



'Hey, ain't life wonderful? wonderful, wonderful, wonderful... isn't it wonderful now? '

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a star wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I laugh aloud so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home

Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now

No No, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
No No, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Some days I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now...
I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now.