Thursday, August 04, 2005

Wake me up when September ends.

When September ends. Kontrak tamat. Kitaorang akan dipanggil untuk discuss tentang new terms of contract - kali nih as permanent staff.

Tapi aku tak sabar menunggu penghujung September, sebab aku dah mempertimbangkan halatuju seterusnya. I am going to leave this place I have grown to love but never feel belong to.

Go to seek improvement in life. Go to find my fortune. Go to find THE ONE.

... Tapi kalau dia bukan THE ONE, kenapa setiap saat fikiran aku hanya mengenangkan dia? Kenapa tiap dinihari perkara pertama yang aku fikirkan ialah dia? Kenapa tidur aku masih diiringi doa untuk dia?

Sungguh kitaorang mula2 bertemu dalam keadaan gembira, dan berpisah jugak dalam keadaan gembira. Masih teringat kali terakhir melihat dia, dia masih tersenyum dan aku pun sama.

Tuhan. Aku tak sedar betapa dalam rupanya kasihku padanya. Sayangnya kasih tak sampai.

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Thursday, August 04, 2005

Lirik Lagu Kasih Tak Sampai (Padi)

Indah...

Terasa indah...

Bila kita terbuai dalam alunan cinta...

Sedapat mungkin terciptakan rasa..

Keinginan saling memiliki

Namun bila,

Itu semua dapat terwujud

Dalam satu ikatan cinta

Tak semudah seperti yang pernah terbayang...

Menyatukan perasaan...

Tetaplah menjadi bintang dilangit

Agar cinta kita akan abadi

Biarlah sinarmu tetap menyinari alam ini,

Agar menjadi saksi cinta kita

Berdua...

Berdua...

Sudah...

Lambat sudah...

Kini semua harus berakhir

Mungkin inilah jalan yang terbaik

Dan kita mesti relakan kenyataan ini

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Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Lirik Lagu Menunggu Sebuah Jawapan (Padi)

Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu

Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu

Seiring jejak kakiku bergetar

Aku telah terpagut oleh cintamu.

Menyelusup hariku dengan harapan

Namun kau masih terdiam membisu.

Sepenuhnya aku

Ingin memelukmu

Mendekat penuh harapan

Untuk mencintaimu.

Setulusnya aku

Akan terus menunggu

Menanti sebuah jawapan

Untuk memilikimu.

Betapa pilunya rindu menusuk hatiku

Semoga kau tahu isi hatiku

Dan seiring waktu yang terus berputar

Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku.

Sepenuhnya aku

Ingin memelukmu

Mendekat penuh harapan

'tuk mencintaimu.

Setulusnya aku

Akan terus menunggu

Menanti sebuah jawapan

Untuk memilikimu.

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Monday, August 01, 2005

My weekend

Blissful weekend...

After one week of communication-less with people (colleagues aside), I went back to my old place to have a de-stress session. Since it was drizzling, I had to wait for Mr. Chairman to finish his work and then hitch a ride all the way to where I used to stay. Everybody was pleased to see me.

'Ah, you. Let's go dinner.'

On normal occasion, I would balk at the idea. Dinner is almost non-existant in my dictionary. Lunch is the good ol' strawberry yogurt. It must be strawberry. Too bad they don't have chocolate yogurt. But hey, it would defeat the whole purpose, isn't it?

So dinner we had. For someone who had starved herself for most days, it was a lavish affair.

My housemate wanted to eat siakap masak stim (steamed siakap). I was dying for tomyam ayam with lotsa mushrooms. And another housemate insisted on a balanced diet, so we ordered sayur kailan ikan masin (kailan with salted fish). For appetizer, we devoured the whole basket of otak-otak. This is the main reason why I felt that prolonging the decision to move back to the Land of Hornbills are fully justified. Dinner outing is one mind-blowing experience to me :)

We ate to our heart's content. The steamed fish is deliciously done. My sense picked up every essence of the taste - sour & salty, with a tinge of sweetness of the fish flesh. The kailan wasn't that bad, except it was cooked in the truly Malay-style - lotsa oil. The most mouth-watering would be the chicken tomyam, hot but not too hot, the chicken pieces hidden by all the mushrooms (the way I like it).

That nite, I slept soundly, all basic needs had been satisfied (good company, good food, cozy mattress).

Sunday came.

As my dearest chum woke up late, we had a late exploration of the day. We had lunch at Pak Ali (famous for the crispy fried mushroom-on-a-stick and the bomb price they charged for it). Then I wanted to survey for new spectacles (I'm going frameless again). After draining my pocket at the optical shop where I did my current specs, we went to our usual hanging out place - Jusco.

The place was bustling with frenzied shoppers. We merely enjoyed doing what we do best - window shopping, trying out clothes, and have a Japanese experience (do I love wasabi?). Wasabi is unique. I normally hate spicy, hot things. However, I fell head-over-heel with wasabi. It's only to be consumed by the brave-heart. And if I swallowed too much of that thing, the person to me would get the hardest thumping in their life. The burning sensation does not linger on your tongue, it travels up to your nose, your eyes, your brain... I just love that green stuff.

And who am I to deny my heritage? I'm a Melanau, for cry-out-sake! We eat raw fish. Raw salmon included.

Tired of looking around, we decided to head back to good ol' apartment. Lying down, watching tv, from Hindi movie, to documentary on 'limau madu'. I laughed non-stop when the commentator who obviously byheart his speech, accidentally let out his own Kelantanese dialect - 'bebah dari penyakit.' And my housemate (a Kelantanese) roared in laughter too. 'Mesti cari dier balik Kelate nanti.' She commented, after the laughter subsided.

I stayed at my old house until after Maghrib, and then went back. Ah, well. Next week some friends are coming down from KL to meet me, and I'm looking forward to their visit :)

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Friday, July 29, 2005

Kedatangan Tan Sri

Semua orang kat opis excited giler bila tau shareholder kiteorang nak datang. Mana yang bersepah dieorang kemaskan. Memang excited la tu.

Termasuk la aku. Dulu aku penah involve dalam satu projek wat documentary pasal history dier n yayasan dier. Dier memang orang yang aku kagumi.

Dah la jutawan, dermawan, usahawan n semua yang 'wan' yang kat belakang tu dier boleh sapu. Tapi paling mustahak sekali, dier sorang yang betul2 patuh perintah agama. Seorang jutawan yang soleh.

Bila dier datang, tak de sapa yang tak terpegun tengok dier. Dressing dier selamba je. Tak de la pakai kot n neck tie. Then, dier murah ngan senyuman. Daripada cleaner opis, tea lady, eksekutif ke manager, sumer dier sedekahkan ngan senyuman manis dier.

Dia lalu belakang meja aku, n aku memberanikan diri tegur dier, 'Assalamualaikum, Tan Sri.' Dier pun jawab, 'Waalaikumussalam.' Waah! Terasa melayang sekejap bila dia jawab salam aku :) Memang best la dier nih...

Tapi yang paling aku tak expect, bila dier blah, sumer orang berebut2 masuk bilik meeting nak amik botol air mineral dier, kuih lapis & karipap atas pinggan dier yg dier tak makan! Memang kagum tahap melampau la depa nih ngan dier! Sapa2 yang salam ngan dier plak sibuk bagitau sumer orang pasal tu, n cakap dieorang kompem tak nak basuh tangan malam tu!

Terasa seronok berjumpa ngan Tan Sri arinih. Dier nih baru boleh aku nobatkan sebagai 'Malaysian Idol'. In fact, he is my idol. :)

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