Bingung. Tu je yg aku rasa.

Dah dua hari aku bz giler dengan segala macam meeting, ngan nak melayan karenah manusia yg banyak songeh kat tempat ni. Kerja yg simple dah jadi susah. Membazir masa dan tenaga betul... Tapi nak buat camane. Sabaq je la...

Balik dari gym pukul 11 malam. Letih sesangat. Mandi, solat n tunggu orang tu call. Baru je borak2 10 minit, housemate aku dah call, cakap ada meeting. Orang tu dah merungut2 tapi sebab diaorang dah kedengaran urgent, aku pun terpaksa menamatkan sesi borak2 tu.

Bila semua dah berkumpul, salah seorang daripada diaorang pun cakap,

'Sebenarnya, kitaorang nak bagitau. Hujung bulan ni, Kak Za, Kak Zai, Rona ngan D-ja nak pindah ke Johor Jaya.'

Empat orang nak pindah sekaligus?? Aku terdiam. Aku tengok muka Yana, dia pun terkejut. Ad & Nisha pun berkerut muka.

'Kenapa baru nak cakap? Dulu sendiri yang cakap kalau nak pindah bagi sebulan notis.' Aku sendiri pun tak puas hati. Diaorang terdiam.

'Dah jumpa rumah.'

Entahlah. Lantak diaorang la. Cuma aku tak puas hati sebab diaorang nak mintak balik deposit rumah sedangkan tak bagi sebulan notis, sedangkan dulu beriya2 tetapkan syarat tu. Langsung tak fikir camane ngan housemates yg lain (Kak T-ni, itulah citernya diaorang nih...)

Akhirnya aku jugak yang tak tidur lena malam tu. Kalau aku pindah ke Senai, aku kesiankan housemates yg tinggal. Maknanya, aku pun dah jadi macam diaorang jugak. Kalau aku stay, sewa rumah memang akan naik melambung2. Sedangkan aku baru nak start saving utk sambung master dan tujuan lain. Nak hantar duit ke kampung lagi. Berikat perut la nampaknya nanti.

At least gaji aku dah empat angka. Tapi housemate aku yang dua orang lagi tu, gaji baru tiga angka. Mati kering la diaorang nak membayar sewa rumah nanti. Tupun sorang lagi tak konpem nak pindah kerja ke tak. Kalau dah jadi macam tu, nak tak nak, aku kena pindah jugak ke Senai. Entahlah. Kena ada contingency plan macam nih -- A. Dok je kat Senai. Rumah kecik, sempit n lama pun kenelah tahan sket, asal duit tak suffer and tak sakit hati ngan orang lain. B. Stay n bayar sewa mahal, tapi condition rumah ok. Cuma jauh sket dari tempat keje. C. Sambung master, pas tuh apply duduk kat kolej (boleh ke?) D. Kawen jelah, biar orang tu yang bayar sewa rumah :p Muahahaha!!

Sempat lagi buat lawak bodoh. Hmm..

Work Challenges

It's 9 p.m. I'm still at the office, figuring out what I should do. Going back early means staring at the idiot box. I crossed that out of my list of things to do tonite. Was supposed to go and register for taekwondo lesson. Dill didn't bring any t-shirts. Neither do I.

Suddenly the prospect looks daunting. There's a lot of things to accomplish, yeah, I know. I helped draft the activity calendar for 2005. A couple of things are due this month. Additional projects popped up. Existing projects dragging. I'm at my wits' end. I don't have the power to say two simple words that makes up a phrase Mr. Trump loves to utter -- 'You're fired.'

I don't want to place blame 100% on my project team as we are all short-handed and there are heaps to do right now. What with the terminal renovation going on, and celebration pre-planning to vibe the place -- things are rather hectic. But heck, the thought of having to answer to the Director is terrifying me. I have no answer right now in case he should ask. I'm simply too occupied to find out.

I think I should re-strategize to get things up and about. I need to focus on multi-tasking my jobs. Yup, sounds easy, but it's not. God, I just hope that my spirit will burn thruout this trying period. I simply don't want to give up and say -- 'I'm a failure.'

I mean, hardship is nothing new to me. Especially during my final year. Struggling with a difficult thesis, extra credits, critical financial situation, and emotional friendship, my spirit was stretched thin that I found it exhausting just to hang on to every day life.

But I didn't give up. I spent less time sleeping, and more time writing chapters after chapters of thesis. I took up a part-time job to earn extra cash, and in between classes, I forced myself to study. I remembered revising for Law subjects while serving customers; coming back from work at 11.30 at nite; then washing my dirty uniform to use the next day, and sleeping on my text book at my desk. Then waking up to labor on my thesis so I can pass up the weekly report to my supervisor the next day.

It was a hellish time and I'm glad it's over. Yet it proves to what extent I can last (and I lost kilos thruout the ordeal).

Yup. This is it. Time to roll up my sleeves and get dirty. I've simply enough with moaning about my job (ok, ok.. If I don't there's nothing much to write in this blog!) . This time I will grumble, but work hard to yield a visible output :p

Let's see how long I will last this time.

Malang Tak Berbau...

The first thing I wanna do this morning:

1. Plan the day
2. Start on the souvenir proposal

3. Blog on what happened over the weekend
Last weekend, Anne, Jen, Surve (or Vive, if you wanna call her that) and I planned to shop for Jen's shoes as she was supposed to fly to Taiwan this week.

The plan didn't materialize because Jen, who was supposed to meet up with me at SP didn't turn up when I arrived there. It was drizzling, and as I typed a message to Jen, Anne called me up.

'Did you hear about Jen? She's had an accident!'
'OmiGod! Is she ok?'
'I dunno. Let's go and see her. Meet me at Surve's place.'

We met up, went to the clinic, missed her by 15 minutes and discovered that she was at one of the manager's place. When we arrived, she was looking awfully miserable and in pain. Being Jen, she managed to put up a brave smile for us.

Lucky for Jen, she didn't fall on the inner side of the road and that saved her life as the road was quite busy at that time. We spent some time asking her about the incident, then trying to cheer her up. We asked her whether she'd be ok to go for the trip and asked her to call her manager to inform this. Chairman came, and only had one remark,

'Still sexy.' :p Chairman nih, terserlah his true nature *wink*

To Jen, hope you'll recuperate quickly and don't be too disappointed about the trip to Taiwan which she had to abandon at the last minute. Will continue later.

P/S: Anne & Surve, I just found out that Donald Trump M'sia masuk opis hari ni.

Dear Tech Support:

Last year I upgraded from Girlfriend 7.0 to Wife 1.0. I soon noticed that the new program began unexpected child processing that took up a lot of space and valuable resources. In addition, Wife 1.0 installed itself into all other programs and now monitors all other system activity. Application such as PokerNight 10.3, Football 5.0, Hunting and Fishing 7.5, and Racing 3.6 no longer run, crashing the system whenever selected. I can't seem to keep Wife 1.0 in the background while attempting to Run my favorite application. I'm thinking about going back to Girlfriend 7.0, but the uninstall doesn't work on Wife 1.0. Please help!
Thanks,
A Troubled User
(SEE REPLY BELOW)
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REPLY:

Dear Troubled User:

This is a very common problem about which men are complaining. Many people upgrade from Girlfriend 7.0 to Wife 1.0, thinking that it is just a Utilities and Entertainment program. Wife 1.0 is an OPERATING SYSTEM and is designed by its Creator to run EVERYTHING!!! It is also impossible to delete Wife 1.0 and to return to Girlfriend 7.0. It is impossible to uninstall, or purge the program files from the system once installed. You cannot go back to Girlfriend 7.0 because Wife 1.0 is designed to not allow this. Look in your Wife 1.0 manual under Warning-Alimony/Child Support. I recommend that you keep Wife 1.0 and work on improving the situation. I suggest installing the background Application "Yes Dear" to alleviate software argumentation. The best course of action is to enter the command C;\APOLOGIZE because ultimately you will have to give the APOLOGIZE command before the system will return to normal anyway.

Wife 1.0 is a great program, but it tends to be very high maintenance. Wife 1.0 comes with several support programs, such as Clean and Sweep 3.0, Cook It 1.5, and Do Bills 4.2.
However, be very careful how you use these programs.

Improper use will cause the system to launch the program Nag Nag Nag 9.5. Once this happens, the only way to improve the performance of Wife 1.0 is to purchase additional software. I recommend Flowers 2.1 and Diamonds 5.0!

WARNING!!! DO NOT, under any circumstance, install Secretary With Short Skirt 3.3. This application is not supported by Wife 1.0 and will cause irreversible damage to the operating system.

Best of luck,
Tech Support

Dilema

Apa nak buat yek, bila ada something yg really, really important utk disetelkan, tapi orang lain tak memberikan kerjasama utk menyetelkan perkara nih?

Aku rasa macam pening pun ada gak. Bengang pun ada gak. Bimbang pun ada gak. Jadi project co-ordinator memang tensen. Working in a project memang tensen. Yang mentensenkan ialah working in a group bila ahli group yg lain buat lepas tangan je. Muka sapa yang kene mengadap 'Donald Trump' Mesia kalau tak aku?

Tulah yang berlaku semalam. Pukul 4 ptg, aku dah bergegas menyiapkan meeting pack. Copies of previous minutes. Progress chart. This & that. Aku bersemangat sebab aku nak menyudahkan benda yang dah tertangguh berbulan2 lamanya. Ni dah masuk 3 bulan n meeting yg ke-11. Tapi progress lembap. Part aku memang dah setel, tu pun Lasso Design dah terguling-guling menyetelkannya (sabaq no... bulan ni payment masuk la...) sebab diaorang yang lain tu banyak songeh. Tukar tu. Tukar ni. Bak kata Junaidix, suka2 je tukar system spec. Part sendiri tak buat lagi nak meng-komen part orang. Ha. Amik ko.

Lepas tu, bila aku check balik, rupa2nya diaorang gi buat meeting lain plak! Menyirap darah time tu. Aku kasi email awal2, mintak diaorang konpemkan attendance. Kalau ada plan lain, habaq la. Bley aku re-schedule meeting. Sorang pun tak balas email aku. Huaarggghhh!! Rasa nak bertukar menjadi Hulk pun ada gak. Nak seret sorang demi sorang gi meeting aku. Marah nih!!

Esok Donald Trump nak masuk opis. Aku forwardkan email tanya meeting ni nak dipinda ke tarikh bila, sorang pun tak reply. Patut ke aku beritau perkara sebenar kat Mr. Trump Mesia nih, apa yg menyebabkan projek aku lembap tahap cipan?

Apa yang patut aku buat???