Monday, January 17, 2005

When are words folly, truth are said
Promises given, sweet and true
Each heartbeat drummed, each breath exhaled
For you, for only you.

But when the sun rose, unveiled my eyes
How far the ocean is, how high the mountain
What may be waiting, what may be in lies
You keep in your bosom, too afraid to question.

What you thought the land, are oceans peace
No efforts can turn water to rock and earth
Yet no feet can tread on this
Save only in dream, or in mirth.

Then we question can it be undo
Should nobility prevail, or truth be parted
Should we die knowing our words are true
Or die with no regret in heart?

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Friday, January 14, 2005

Basuh keta

Dalam kekalutan keje n masalah budak2 rumah, aku terlupa plak nak citer pasal event basuh keta yg dianjurkan oleh "Guru Besar" di opis aku. Demi membantu orang lain, dia telah mengerahkan dan memaksa pekerja2 kat opis nih mencuci keta, like it or not.

So buat sesapa yg tinggal di JB, silalah beramai2 memeriahkan tempat letak keta berbumbung di lpgn terbang dari pukul 8.30 a.m. - 4.00 p.m. besok (Sabtu). Aku mungkin datang bersama2 ngan kamera baru dept aku utk mengambil gambar evidence of human rights abuse pada hari tsbt.

Aku bukan nak memperlekehkan niat murni dia, tapi cara dia nak implement idea brilliant ni dah step on people's toes, and quite a number has complained about this. Selain daripada me'reject' tagline yg kitaorang dah terguling2 nak fikirkan, dia cuma bagi arahan.

'Water jet. Nak dua. Man, sediakan.'
'Promotion. CC dept please prepare news release...'
'Banner. Nak dua jugak. Tagline tu tak best. Tukar. Btw, banner nak besok.' (banner ni dah, mengikut mdm. K, 2 kali kene fax. Lepas tu, kontraktor tu fed up n datang sendiri utk m'konpemkan balik tagline yg akan digunapakai. Aku dah m'design, dan menukar design, dan menukar lagi, akhirnya fed up dan burn je dlm cd, kasi kat kontraktor tu)
'Flyers kene distribute besok.' (nasib baik la Cik Anne kita seorang pekerja yg inovatif, kreatif, dan berinisiatif dah pun meringankan beban aku dengan m'design' flyers nih dan beliau betul2 berbangga dengan hasil kerja nya ni...)

His part?

'I akan kerahkan my staff utk cuci keta besok. You all pun kene cuci keta jugak.'

Sapa tak tensen?? There goes my pahala down the drain...

Kalau nak tau lebih lanjut pasal event nih, bacalah UTUSAN MALAYSIA hari ni kat halaman selatan tanah air. OK la. Aku kene jumpa supplier, pas tu aku kene attend meeting booth design, lepas tu aku nak tidur. Malam semalam dah terbersin2. Mungkin sebab aku alergik kat 'Guru Besar' kot (masa meeting ari tu aku sempat lagi gaduh ngan dia depan boss aku. Aku memang kaki gaduh kot. Gaduh bukan ngan sebarang orang, gaduh ngan manager plak tu).

Begitulah minggu nih berlalu ngan begitu bnyk peristiwa hampeh.

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Thursday, January 13, 2005

Bingung. Tu je yg aku rasa.

Dah dua hari aku bz giler dengan segala macam meeting, ngan nak melayan karenah manusia yg banyak songeh kat tempat ni. Kerja yg simple dah jadi susah. Membazir masa dan tenaga betul... Tapi nak buat camane. Sabaq je la...

Balik dari gym pukul 11 malam. Letih sesangat. Mandi, solat n tunggu orang tu call. Baru je borak2 10 minit, housemate aku dah call, cakap ada meeting. Orang tu dah merungut2 tapi sebab diaorang dah kedengaran urgent, aku pun terpaksa menamatkan sesi borak2 tu.

Bila semua dah berkumpul, salah seorang daripada diaorang pun cakap,

'Sebenarnya, kitaorang nak bagitau. Hujung bulan ni, Kak Za, Kak Zai, Rona ngan D-ja nak pindah ke Johor Jaya.'

Empat orang nak pindah sekaligus?? Aku terdiam. Aku tengok muka Yana, dia pun terkejut. Ad & Nisha pun berkerut muka.

'Kenapa baru nak cakap? Dulu sendiri yang cakap kalau nak pindah bagi sebulan notis.' Aku sendiri pun tak puas hati. Diaorang terdiam.

'Dah jumpa rumah.'

Entahlah. Lantak diaorang la. Cuma aku tak puas hati sebab diaorang nak mintak balik deposit rumah sedangkan tak bagi sebulan notis, sedangkan dulu beriya2 tetapkan syarat tu. Langsung tak fikir camane ngan housemates yg lain (Kak T-ni, itulah citernya diaorang nih...)

Akhirnya aku jugak yang tak tidur lena malam tu. Kalau aku pindah ke Senai, aku kesiankan housemates yg tinggal. Maknanya, aku pun dah jadi macam diaorang jugak. Kalau aku stay, sewa rumah memang akan naik melambung2. Sedangkan aku baru nak start saving utk sambung master dan tujuan lain. Nak hantar duit ke kampung lagi. Berikat perut la nampaknya nanti.

At least gaji aku dah empat angka. Tapi housemate aku yang dua orang lagi tu, gaji baru tiga angka. Mati kering la diaorang nak membayar sewa rumah nanti. Tupun sorang lagi tak konpem nak pindah kerja ke tak. Kalau dah jadi macam tu, nak tak nak, aku kena pindah jugak ke Senai. Entahlah. Kena ada contingency plan macam nih -- A. Dok je kat Senai. Rumah kecik, sempit n lama pun kenelah tahan sket, asal duit tak suffer and tak sakit hati ngan orang lain. B. Stay n bayar sewa mahal, tapi condition rumah ok. Cuma jauh sket dari tempat keje. C. Sambung master, pas tuh apply duduk kat kolej (boleh ke?) D. Kawen jelah, biar orang tu yang bayar sewa rumah :p Muahahaha!!

Sempat lagi buat lawak bodoh. Hmm..

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Monday, January 10, 2005

Work Challenges

It's 9 p.m. I'm still at the office, figuring out what I should do. Going back early means staring at the idiot box. I crossed that out of my list of things to do tonite. Was supposed to go and register for taekwondo lesson. Dill didn't bring any t-shirts. Neither do I.

Suddenly the prospect looks daunting. There's a lot of things to accomplish, yeah, I know. I helped draft the activity calendar for 2005. A couple of things are due this month. Additional projects popped up. Existing projects dragging. I'm at my wits' end. I don't have the power to say two simple words that makes up a phrase Mr. Trump loves to utter -- 'You're fired.'

I don't want to place blame 100% on my project team as we are all short-handed and there are heaps to do right now. What with the terminal renovation going on, and celebration pre-planning to vibe the place -- things are rather hectic. But heck, the thought of having to answer to the Director is terrifying me. I have no answer right now in case he should ask. I'm simply too occupied to find out.

I think I should re-strategize to get things up and about. I need to focus on multi-tasking my jobs. Yup, sounds easy, but it's not. God, I just hope that my spirit will burn thruout this trying period. I simply don't want to give up and say -- 'I'm a failure.'

I mean, hardship is nothing new to me. Especially during my final year. Struggling with a difficult thesis, extra credits, critical financial situation, and emotional friendship, my spirit was stretched thin that I found it exhausting just to hang on to every day life.

But I didn't give up. I spent less time sleeping, and more time writing chapters after chapters of thesis. I took up a part-time job to earn extra cash, and in between classes, I forced myself to study. I remembered revising for Law subjects while serving customers; coming back from work at 11.30 at nite; then washing my dirty uniform to use the next day, and sleeping on my text book at my desk. Then waking up to labor on my thesis so I can pass up the weekly report to my supervisor the next day.

It was a hellish time and I'm glad it's over. Yet it proves to what extent I can last (and I lost kilos thruout the ordeal).

Yup. This is it. Time to roll up my sleeves and get dirty. I've simply enough with moaning about my job (ok, ok.. If I don't there's nothing much to write in this blog!) . This time I will grumble, but work hard to yield a visible output :p

Let's see how long I will last this time.

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Monday, January 10, 2005

Malang Tak Berbau...

The first thing I wanna do this morning:

1. Plan the day
2. Start on the souvenir proposal
3. Blog on what happened over the weekend
Last weekend, Anne, Jen, Surve (or Vive, if you wanna call her that) and I planned to shop for Jen's shoes as she was supposed to fly to Taiwan this week.

The plan didn't materialize because Jen, who was supposed to meet up with me at SP didn't turn up when I arrived there. It was drizzling, and as I typed a message to Jen, Anne called me up.

'Did you hear about Jen? She's had an accident!'
'OmiGod! Is she ok?'
'I dunno. Let's go and see her. Meet me at Surve's place.'

We met up, went to the clinic, missed her by 15 minutes and discovered that she was at one of the manager's place. When we arrived, she was looking awfully miserable and in pain. Being Jen, she managed to put up a brave smile for us.

Lucky for Jen, she didn't fall on the inner side of the road and that saved her life as the road was quite busy at that time. We spent some time asking her about the incident, then trying to cheer her up. We asked her whether she'd be ok to go for the trip and asked her to call her manager to inform this. Chairman came, and only had one remark,

'Still sexy.' :p Chairman nih, terserlah his true nature *wink*

To Jen, hope you'll recuperate quickly and don't be too disappointed about the trip to Taiwan which she had to abandon at the last minute. Will continue later.

P/S: Anne & Surve, I just found out that Donald Trump M'sia masuk opis hari ni.

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