Thursday, July 14, 2005

Salam.

Ainie ngan Jen tengah buat lawak kat tepi. Aku tengah siapkan timeline projek. Aku tergelak. Diaorang terus buat lawak.

Lagu Ferhad 'Pernah' tengah bermain kat pc. Dah dengar beratus2 kali pun tak boring. Tadi Trump lalu. Aku tengah main lagu tu. Nasib baik tak kuat2 macam yang Jen suruh.

Ainie tengah dok atas tong sampah. Timeline dah siap. Masuk bilik manager jap, hapdet status tasks aku. Renovation, ok. System, ok. Fuh, lega. Time to go back.

Nak lepak rumah Jen la malam nih.

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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Salam.

Beberapa kali dah teringin nak menulis sesuatu kat blog. Tapi sejak hari tu, mood tu tak de. Pernah gak terlintas kat fikiran nak tutup je blog nih. Tapi, ah. Sayanglah. Penat je dia create layout nih.

Banyak perkara yang dah berlaku sejak kali terakhir aku tulis something. Aku dah pindah rumah dekat2 sket ngan tempat kerja. Jimat sey, duit. Sewa RM25 je sebulan. Petrol pun jimat. Tapi sunyi. Ada aku, housemate yang selalu tak de, &... kucing.

Konsentrasi sepenuhnya dihabiskan kat kerja. Semakin kerap berjalan2 dari duduk kat depan pc. Bawak kontraktor melawat site. Pastikan water inlet / outlet, electrical DB, renovation, etc. dah dipasang. Mula2 penat gak. Tapi dah dua minggu berlalu, dah biasa. Badan pun dah makin ringan. Turun 2 kg maah, macam berat masa aku masih bergelar student dulu. Berjalan2, tak makan lunch, makan dinner yang ringan2 je. Tapi pipi je tak kurus2. Still chubby macam dulu. Aku berazam nak turunkan berat badan to 47 kg :) That's another 2 kg to lose.

Kesian Ainie. Kucing dier kena langgar kereta. Ainie paling sayang kat kucing tu. Bila aku call dier, dier tengah sedih giler. Aku cuma boleh bagitau dier supaya bersabar, and semuanya dah ditakdirkan. Ainie, if you need a hug and a shoulder to cry on (not to say, plenty of Kleenex), I'm always here for you. So's Jen. And Chairman.

Hmm. Lastly, kalau ada sesapa yang tau pasal program MBA yang best and affordable, tolong cakap ye? Aku tengah wat preparation nak sambung study. Tengah mensasarkan KL as the location sebab kat KL banyak sket choice. Of course teringin gak nak further kat overseas, tapi rasanya tak mampu.

Lepas tu, apa ek? Hmm. Tak fikir lagi. Yang penting nak sambung study je la. Sayang la kalau tak sambung. Sememangnya aku suka ilmu. Aku penah baca kisah Imam Syafiee & macamana gigihnya dier menuntut ilmu. Dulu bukan macam sekarang. Dulu kene merentas padang pasir, bekerja tanpa upah untuk dapatkan satu2 ilmu pelajaran, dsb. Kira macam kisah Imam Syafiee tu jadi sumber inspirasi kat aku sebab aku kagum kat dia.

Ada satu citer nih dia tak de pena nak tulis apa yang
tengah disampaikan oleh cikgu dier. Jadi Imam Syafiee pun amik batang lidi and
guna air liur dier, dier tulis kat tapak tangan. Cikgu tu pun ingat dier
main-main ngan lidi masa ceramah. So dier pun kena marah. Imam Syafiee bagitau
kat cikgu tu yang dier tengah tulis apa yang tengah diceramahkan. Bila dier
citer balik kat cikgu tu apa yang dah disampaikan dari pagi tu, cikgu tu
terkejut. Rupa2nya Imam Syafiee betul2 tengah tulis semua yang diajar oleh cikgu
tu. Betapa bersemangatnya Imam Syafiee.

Jadi aku pun kena gak mencontohi Imam Syafiee yang mana aku berpegang pada mazhab dier. Erm. Dah pukul 2. Nak sambung kerja. Bubbye.

-nak kena upgrade gak ilmu fardhu ain (agama), selain ilmu fardhu kifayah (dunia).-

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Wednesday, June 29, 2005

A Final Ode For Merahzeous

A Final Ode For Merahzeous
For W. H.

Thank you.
For once upon a time,
You were part of my life.
Even if, all I have now is a blur-
Fragment of the mirror.

And though the glass may cut me,
As I hold it- nevermind.

To bleed will remind me that I am human.
That you are human.

Cuts turn to scars.
Scars are memories.
And memories last forever.

So thank you.

Thank you for the memories.

Majidah Hashim

-Magic could have not written a more poignant poem than this. Sorry, Magic. I republish your poem in my blog without your permission. Magic has captured every essence of my emotions in her poem. I am not angry, or accusing, or sorry for what have happened. I simply feel thankful that I was given the chance. To love and be loved in return. To feel the happiness, and the hurt. To know someone sweet and kind like him. I thank God for making him part of me.-

-Bolehkah aku merakamkan semua kenangan ni dalam memori? Tawanya, senyumnya, suaranya? Sebab aku tahu suatu hari nanti dia akan meninggalkan aku. Aku ingin mengenangnya sebagai orang yang membuatkan aku gembira selalu. My heart beats. Of tu et je.- My Diary.

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Friday, June 24, 2005

Differences of Love

Aku terasa lucu tengok gambar kat atas tuh. Betapa berbezanya konsep dating antara dunia Barat ngan dunia Timur. Member aku yang dah kawen plak bagi pendapat sendiri.

'This is a bad image of us (the Moslems).'
'Why?' Aku dah curious. Yelah, aku rasa ok je kot, sebab tunjuk betapa bersopan-santun dan beradabnya kalau gi dating macam couple dari Timur tu.
'Bcoz it shows that WE don't know how to love. It shows that WE only know how to procreate, without love. People looking at this photo would say that WE are incapable of showing love at all.'
'But if they show the behind-the-closed-door scene, then it's DISNEYLAND.' Dia mengakhiri pendapatnya. Aku tergelak.

Kesimpulannya, orang yang dah kawen (dia) ngan orang yang tak kawen lagi (aku) tengok sesuatu perkara dari perspektif yang berbeza. Memang interesting jugak.

-P/S: No comment! :p-

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Thursday, June 23, 2005

Me Against My Calories

Norah Jones' song playing in the background. Teddy bear sprawled next to my pc. A self-made card stuck on the glass panel. A list of tasks, completed.

I'll say. I feel like having blueberry cheesecake right now. But I'm on diet. I just took a cup of slimming tea (yucck!) to prove it. Oh yeaah, it's working alrite. Kalau tak, buat penat je aku ulang-alik ke toilet tengah2 malam.

It's all Jen's fault for my craving for blueberry cheesecake. Earlier, she emailed to me a few images of tempting-looking slices of cheesecake (NOTE: Delicious...)

- Nyum... -

Talking about Jen remind me that I have to find an alternative software to the one I evaluated yesterday.

'Carneyz, how's the software? Can we use it or not?''

'I don't advise so la. Mark (IT admin) told us that Microsoft is not going to support Foxpro in the near future.''

'I see. So we have to look for another software la?''

'Yup. Software that uses ASP. Besides,it only do basic functions. I asked whether it can generate auto sales report, or show plan layout, he said it cannot do so.''

'Can you find out for me?''

'Err. I'll ask Jen.' Jen, the solution provider.

The tea is working. My stomach is hurting, and so's my feet. Walking all day wearing high heels showing clients empty lots is not easy an task. How nice it is right now, toes curled, barefooted. I don't mind though. The more I walk, the more calories I burn. Except that my feet hurt. Darn it, the price you have to pay to feel beautiful (hehe, nobody ever said I look beautiful, so it's only sufficient to feel beautiful).

Hopefully, I mused to myself, when I move nearer to my office, I can go jogging 3 or 4 times in a week (wah cik kak! Bersemangatnyer nak kurus! @->-) Or play tennis. Somebody promised to teach me how to play tennis :) Kewl.

Yup. Badak biru on diet.

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