Friday, January 01, 2010

Happy New Year 2010!

Ini ialah Carneyz, membuat laporan tahun baru menggunakan ID Suami Terchenta. Saya malas nak log out dan login semula. Hahaha. Adakah ini attitude semasa tahun baru? Cis. Memang tak boleh harap.

Sebelum saya membebel rentetan malam semalam yang boleh bikin kami dapat anugerah pekerja paling berdedikasi di akhir 2009 (cewah!), saya nak ucapkan Selamat Tahun Baru 2010 KAWAN-KAWAN! Sila doakan tahun ini keluarga kami akan bertambah Mr + Mrs Junaidix + Junaidix Jr. + Carneyz Jr. HAHAHAHA! Tamak kan saya? Orang lain nak anak sorang, saya nak double dose. Tapi sebenarnya kalau boleh. Saya nak SEORANG ANAK BAGI SETIAP TAHUN KAMI DAH MEMBINA RUMAHTANGGA INI (En Junaidix tak hiraukan saya dengan angan-angan extreme ni, beliau sedang tergolek di atas katil sensorang sebab kepenatan bekerja keras semalaman - ooii, dia bekerja keras sebab ni ye. Bukan projek multi-million dollar kami tu (PERINGATAN: Blog ini mesra keluarga dan tidak mengandungi unsur-unsur yang tidak dibenarkan.)

Berbalik cerita malam semalam. Semalam kami balik kerja awal. Setelah singgah sebentar di Low Yat membeli casing handphone saya yang baru. Kesian sama itu handphone, bertelanjang bulat sejak bajunya hilang. Lagi sentiasa jatuh dan berkecai. Apa ko ingat hp tu RM2 je Carneyz??

Back to storyline asal. Sampai je di rumah, kami pon makan malam yang tak seberapa, lepas tu dengan kadar segera kembali menghadap laptop masing-masing. Hidupkan Internet, online kan YM. Siyes giler comel kan? Duduk serumah pon nak YM each other. Keskeskes... Nanti saya bagitau sebab apa kena pakai YM.

Maka bermulalah tempoh bekerja keras di luar waktu pejabat yang berakhir pukul 5.30pg tadi. En Suami sebagai web engineer mulalah memasang rangka-rangka yang sepatutnya. Saya sebagai kuli batak designer tak bertauliah mula bersilat dengan kekasih lama saya, En. Adobe Photoshop CS4 (sebelum saya terjebak ke kancah perkahwinan, chenta hati saya ialah En Photoshop yang gagah perkasa lagi bikin hati saya teruja). Selesai satu design, saya hantar file tuh kat En Junaidix menggunakan YM. Apa kes nak hantar email maupun thumbdrive. Cehcehceh...

Sesambil tu kami menonton citer FaceOff, diikuti Da Vinci Code. Ini ialah environment kerja yang saya suka. Bilalah kami dapat bekerja di rumah saja nih! Boleh tengok tv sambil buat kerja yang saya suka (iaitu bersilat dengan En Photoshop).

Sebenarnya kerja-kerja contengan website tuh tak la terlalu susah tapi sebab saya dah lama simpan skill design dalam kotak lepas tu kunci dan buang kotak itu jauh-jauh ke dasar hati saya memandangkan kerjaya saya yang sentiasa seboks, jadi pada mulanya saya jadi kekok. Nak cari brush pon terkial-kial. Wakakaka! Apa lagi nak buat animated gif. Ko gila berpeluh-peluh aku malam kelmarin. Bagai hilang akal. Tapi sedikit demi sedikit, ingatan saya kembali pulih. Akhirnya tercetus design-design yg tak seberapa ini.

Tahun ni jugak kami bercadang hendak melibatkan diri secara sukarela dan dengan semangat sivik yang tinggi, untuk menghidupkan Msjbox (iaitu chenta hati pertama Suami Terchenta). Jadi harap-harap kawan-kawan akan menyokong usaha murni kami yang gigih ni... ok?

Selamat Hari Raya, eh! Tahun Baru uols! :)

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Tuesday, December 15, 2009

May The Light Guides Us Until The End of Time - Happy 3rd Anniversary

Today our marriage turned 3 years old. 3 years old, people. 3 fantastic, bittersweet, honest-to-God years of being man and wife.

Some people said that at the current divorce rate, anyone who made it to the third year will have it easier to deal with in the years after. At the very beginning, we spent our time trying to fit square pegs into round holes. Rubbing at each other's differences, bickering and discovering the other side we never saw before. The first year we courted and being oh so lovey-dovey till everybody else vomited blood.

Past one year, we sort of got an idea or two of the stranger we vowed to live with to the end of our days. We learned to accept the differences, sometimes not graciously but sort of you know you gotta accept them anyway. The fuzzy film in front of our eyes was slowly eroding, revealing the real person we were.

Came second year, we settled into our routine. We could already read each other's minds, body language, likes and dislikes. Yet we were still lost at which direction we should point our relationship to - Romeo & Juliet? Edward & Bella? Or are we destined to be BFF (Best Friend Forever?) I see that we are leaning more towards BFF, darling. While it is still good, I wished we could hold on to that romantic stage. It has been a long time since I got a call from someone telling me how much he missed me.

My darling husband, I know living with me is not easy. If I had to live with myself, I would probably consider an annulment. But you stuck by, undaunted. You endured my disgruntled nature, moodiness, and even crazy working schedule. I read in a paper a few weeks ago, how a hubby divorced his wife because she's too busy working. And I thank God I had married you instead of that guy.

I know I am not a perfect wife. Do you still remember that regular dinner I cooked every night during the first few months of our marriage? If you don't, I don't blame you. But you can take my waist measurement as proof of that glorious happy time. Yes, I have not been cooking, let alone warming up anything on the stove since I started work in this new company. MIL is right - I am not feeding you well enough.

I know I like to complain a lot. I complained about my work when you're tired with yours. I complained about the lack of attention from you when I want you to work harder for our family's future. I cared more about my own hardships rather than yours.

My love, tonight I feel so small beside you. No, I'm not talking about size. I'm talking about emotion. Tonight I was ready to believe that you would not think much of our anniversary.

But I was so WRONG! Suddenly you handed me a small box. All of a sudden, I felt so embarrassed. So guilty. I thought I could not accept this gift, not when both of us could not afford such luxuries at this time of the year. Not when I believed that you were pressured into buying this for me so I would not sulk for being unappreciated.

To cut it short, you proved that you are a GREATER spouse than me. Not because of the gift you bought which made me cry, but because you truly believe that I am the LOVE of your life. That despite my weaknesses, you still see the goodness in me. My dear, I don't know why, but tonight I feel the need to shed tears. Of joy, of humility, of love and gratitude.

God, I want to be a good wife to this man. I want to be a good mother to his children. I want to be his best friend, his accomplice, his ally, his partner. For as long as You give me time, please grant my prayer.

Selamat Ulangtahun Perkahwinan, sayang. You are still, the man, the very best of man in my life. I love you.

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Monday, November 30, 2009

Mari Bicara Dengan Suami Terchenta

Firstly, saya mahu ucap terima kasih. Terima kasih Amy, Husna. Kalian berjaya meraih mood saya kembali. Saya sudah kurang depressed. Life still perlu diteruskan.

Ahad lepas. Semalam lah. Kami sama-sama di dapur. Saya tengah chop bawang merah. Chop halus-halus, biar tak dak rasa dah. Bley gitu? Tapi hati masih kepingin tambah bawang. Owh, life is so complicated. En Suami Terchenta sedang memanaskan air. Di tangan beliau separuh bungkus spaghetti bersedia untuk direndam di dalam air panas yang menggelegak. Nasib la kau, spagetti. Pasti spagetti sedang mintak nyawa sebelum diterjunkan di dalam air panas menggelegak.

'Potpetpotpetpotpet...' Kami berborak2. Tentang kerja. Tentang projek side income beliau. Tentang saya dan perasaan meluat dengan kerja.

Sambil tangan saya menghidupkan api, memanaskan kuali, menuang minyak lantas menumis bawang. Tangan dan mulut sama-sama busy di dapur. Tangan mencapai meatball, lalu dicampak ke dalam kuali. Kemudian mencapai daging kisar.

'Kamu lihat ni, sayang? Ini barulah minced meat.' Saya berkata sambil menunjukkan label bungkusan cap Ramly's. Suami Terchenta senyum kambing. Ternyata beliau memang tak tau membezakan minced meat dengan minced chicken. Satu berwarna merah, satu berwarna putih. Malam Khamis, kami makan spagetti minced chicken uols. Lepas tu beliau komplen rasanya tak sama dengan spagetti bolognese. Haih! *tepuk dahi*

Mujurlah sekarang En Suami Terchenta sudah tau rebus spagetti. Sebelum rebus kena letak minyak zaitun sesudu dua, supaya spagetti tak melekat. Maklumlah, spagetti tu berkanji. Next time, saya akan ajar En Suami membuat kuah spagetti ala Italian.

Yes, mintak ampun sebab kami seboks bekerja sekarang, menambah pendapatan rumahtangga. Saya sedang menunggu download trial Microsoft Office 2007 supaya lepas ni saya boleh sambung buat kerja di rumah. En Suami pulak sedang bermeeting di luar tentang projek side income beliau. Tomorrow, lusa dan tulat, saya akan berjauhan dari Suami Terchenta, demi KERJA DAN TAK LAIN TAK BUKAN KERNA KERJA. Oh Tuhanku, bila boleh kami merasa hidup yang free dari beban kerja?

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Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Menang 4-3!

Ini bukan tipu. Ini betul-betul punya. Kami menang friendship match lawan Ma****** bukan setakat 2-1, tapi 4-3! Kawan-kawan, mari sama2 angkat tangan sambil jerit, 'HOYEEE!'

Sebelum aku story pasal game futsal malam ni, meh citer sket asal-usul penglibatan aku di dalam sukan futsal malam ni.

Minggu lepas, kami dapat email menyeru staff-staff untuk join futsal friendly match dengan satu kompeni ni. Demi memenuhi KPI saya menyahut saranan semangat berpasukan, aku pon sign up sekali. Pastu siap pujuk2 member satu dept join sekali. Huhu. Hiduplah KPI sukan untuk negara!

Oh my God! Aku rasa macam mimpi. Macam boleh tampar muka sendiri 10x. Walaupun kami prektis sekali je tapi kami menang. Walaupun kami baru nak decide siapa main position apa 10 minit before kami start game, tapi kami menang:

'Eh, siapa nak main position apa ni? Erk. Defend? Amende tuh?'

Dah la aku serius seorang kaki bangku. Sepak bola pun dengan kadar kelajuan 10km/j. Goalkeeper boleh jalan lenggang-kangkung nak tangkap bola aku ok! MUAHAHA! Aku gelak cover line nih. Therefore, aku rasa macam tak percaya pulak bila kami menang. Gambatte!

Ehem. Warm up dulu. Prektis tendang bola

Sebelum start game, kami beratur untuk bertukar-tukar cenderahati. Kami semua dapat diari. Erk. Hopefully itu ialah diari untuk tahun depan ye geng lawan. Hehe.

Mari-mari, kita tukar hadiah Krismas.

Aku main position defend, ambik kau! Yang bestnya, bila game nak start aku leh tanya, 'Eh, defend tu apa? Dia buat apa ha?' *ramai2 pengsan di court Ampang Sports Planet*

Game tu habis pukul 9pm dan kami semua pulang dengan gumbira (ini ialah ayat malas dari orang mengantok yang keletihan lepas menang futsal).

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Monday, November 16, 2009

You're Happy Because You Want Yourself to Be Happy

Recently I have been experiencing a rough patch at work, which is nothing to do with work surprisingly. How I hold up emotionally, only God, Ainie and Jen know. Ok, Ainie & Jen are in the know because we used to share same office, faced same dragons characters, and came up with cute nicknames for them. Durian? However did Ainie manage to come up with that. Tsk.

Anyway, I wouldn't spill here because that wouldn't be professional, kan. Enough to say, my way of dealing with difficult characters is, I choose not to care. For me, life moves on in whatever ways I choose. If I choose to be happy, my life will be happy. Lesson to everybody - never lets other people dictate how you should feel. Happiness should come from within.

Lesson I learn from the whole experience. Whatever happens, there must be a hikmah. Maybe God just want to show me who are my real friends. People like Jen and Ainie, because we once quarreled and did not speak for months but the strength of our friendship lasted us through that and the bond became even stronger once we overcame our differences. People like Kak Za, who dared to point out my mistakes right in my face instead of talking behind my back to others. People like my dear friend Bib, who stand by me through thick or thin over the past 9 years, people like Agatha, who stood to defend me when someone tried to backstab me, and people like Eva, who never judged me and accepted me for me.

Of course, there are also people who boost up my morale like Msjbox buddies, and recently people I met over a game of futsal. The hikmah I see is, when one door closed, another door opens. More opportunities to meet more people. More experiences doing new things that enrich my life.

I believe in seeing a glass half full. I do not want to dwell on negative thoughts. Work is already so stressful, why stress myself even more thinking about people's behaviors and attitude? One thing I like about my old company - almost everybody back-stabbed everybody but in the office, professional facade is still maintained even though you hate that person's guts so bad. When you have to communicate to that person, you will do it in a professional way. You don't try to avoid communicating to them, you don't re-route the communication to a middle person and you certainly don't display your crude communication skill because that will show your weakness. In other words, you don't mix up your work and personal issues together.

So, best if I keep a respectful distance towards these characters in order not to be affected by their hostile attitude. Hanya Allah membalas dan Allah itu Maha Adil lagi Maha Mengetahui.

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