Woke up at 6.30 am today although last nite crashed home quite late after a girls' nite out watching scary movie and gossipping during dinner. Just sat, still under my warm blanket, blinking in the dark, trying to remember something.

Oh yeah... I'm on leave. No work. Get back to sleep. I fell back onto my pillow. Snore...

Woke up at 9.30 am. Pretty early, considering that I'm not working today. I couldn't sleep, so I just rolled off my mattress, and went to shower. Couldn't decide what to do today. We were supposed to go on a holiday - us four. Since we can't go to beaches anymore for fear of tsunami, we decided to call it off. Cancel. Now what?

Ate breakfast, chit-chatting with my two housemates who were on their day off. I still had no idea what I was supposed to do. OK, I have to fetch my bike which I'd left at my office. So around noon, I went to my office.

I entered office, chatting on the phone with Anne, wearing extremely casual (jeans & denim jacket) that everybody stared.

'Afternoon, everyone.' Cheerfully greeted everyone before heading toward's Jane's & Adri's room. Then I did the unthinkable. I decided to spend my hols. WORKING.

Yup, Carneyz the workaholic. Tsk, tsk. How pathetic. So, ciao.

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Hectic

Things are rather hectic this morning as I decided that I would have to take things into my hands to fast-track a lot of pending jobs.

915 am - Brief progress discussion with Project Engineer on signages' issue.

Me : Yeah, really like to know what's the current status. It should be up there a month ago.

Him: That, but they are giving a lot of excuse.

Me: When's scheduled delivery?

Him: Err... a week ago?

Me: Tsk. How bothersome. Are we going to see the Director and get slaughtered for failing to meet this delivery timeframe?

Him: I'll check with them but the PO mentioned 2 weeks' delivery and by this weekend, if they are not responding, I guess we're legally free to replace them.

Me: Yeah, good. I'll update the progress?

Him: Yes. Monday.

950 am - Internet kiosk discussion with Systems & Network Administrator.

Me: Are we installing anything? What's the progress?

Him: Waiting for the booth design.

Me: But can't we get the contractor to do that as well? We're not engaging ID to come in.

Him: No. Basically, we have the PCs, but we don't have kiosks in place.

Me: Well, constructing a new one would mean more investment. Why not just use the current setting? It looks bad that we're promising something, but we still haven't put anything there.

Him: OK. But as for the clocking system, we have to purchase that.

Me: I have to check whether it's necessary.

Him: OK.

1015 am - Ad agency presenting a proposal. Impressive. Jen and I whispered at the back of the room and giggled :p Shessh... Girls, we're in a meeting...

1100 am - Creative agency came.

Me: That would be 10,000 pieces of brochures?

Them: Yeah.

Me: What happened to the bromide?

Them: Err. (Nasir got out his phone) I'll call Didiz.

Me: I've another job. Signage.... bla2.. propose the material... bla2... measurement, we'll go upstairs and estimate... bla2... as soon as possible. Is Monday ok?

Them: OK (each scribbled in planner)

1130 am - Website. In email. For review.

1200 pm - PR keyed in wrong. Have to issue new PR. Done.

1230 pm - Corporate kit ready.

100 pm - Coffee Break... :)

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Like a Woman Scorned

Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned,
Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned.

-William Congreve, The Mourning Bride , 1697


- Ironic. Isn't it? You once loved someone and then one day, you woke up hating that person like you've never loved before. I remember the Prophet (peace be upon him) has this advice to all,

'Love each other moderately, because you might hate each other one day;
and hate each other moderately, because you might love each other one day'.

The religion teaches us to do everything, to feel everything, moderately. We might never know when our heart turns the other way and all the things that we said about someone we hate will end up upon ourselves, will eat us up.

In the end, it's just another game played in this world.-

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Unsettled.

I feel complain-ish.

I remember feeling this emotion only when I was in debating community. When I first joined debate, I got on the wrong end of one of the senior debaters and somehow I bore a gloomy impression on debate meetings till I decided to end my debating life prematurely (as Rajan claimed). I loved debating, but I always felt eggy whenever I was around anyone in debating community. Then something happened, and I swore off debating forever.

Then I resumed my happy-as-a-lark life towards the end of my university life. I was rarely down, I was forever laughing. Seriously, one of my friends even made a joke on how easily I erupted into a hearty laughter at the slightest thing that amused me.

Only when I started work at my current job, I seemed to shed the happy person I was to become someone somber, always worried, always keeping a distant between myself and the surroundings.

I am not happy but I don't know what causes this unhappiness. My pay cheque is better than any of my friends, I have free access to the Internet, I've met good friends whom made life even more bearable.

I feel like my work is meaningless. The inter-department relations are so exhausting that I dread having to ask for their help. My work is so menial that I don't have to use my brains to do it and here I worked hard at graduating with a first-class degree only to spend my time preparing souvenirs, ordering stuffs, hauling boxes of things around, writing memos, processing payment, photocopying...

The whole programme defeats its purpose that I believe none of us find this job interesting anymore. I think this is what they call boredom at work. Burnout. I don't know.

I feel so exploited.

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Kung Fu Hustle

Sabtu lepas aku gi tengok citer nih bersama2 ngan orang tu. Memang kelakar :D Cerita ni mengisahkan dua orang mamat (Stephen Chow ngan watak 'Porky' dlm Shaolin Soccer) yg teringin nak join sekumpulan mafia yg bergelar Axe Gang. Diaorang nih berusaha membuat huru-hara di sebuah perkampungan miskin yg mana penyewanya ialah seorang makcik yg garang yg suka hisap rokok n buli suami. Tapi diaorang tak tau orang kampung tu memang hebat2 belaka dalam kung fu.

Adegan yg membuatkan aku ketawa terbahak2 ialah bila si gemuk tu nak baling pisau kat makcik tu, pisau tu terkena kat Stephen Chow. Lepas tu bila makcik tu nampak dia yg baling pisau, dia nak baling bakul pulak kat makcik tu. Tapi dalam bakul tu ada ular berbisa yg mematuk Stephen Chow sampai bibir dia bengkak n besar giler. Muahahah!! Kelakar seyy...

Tapi satu kekurangan citer nih ialah byk benda dia tak explain. Contohnya macamane Stephen Chow akhirnya pandai berkungfu. Pagi nih aku pun gi website dia. Website nih memang impresif. Saspek betul kat diaorang sbb kecanggihan teknologi yg diaorang gunakan utk buat filem nih setanding ngan filem Barat. Walaupun kebanyakan unsur2 dia dicedok dari filem Stephen Chow yg sebelum nih - Shaolin Soccer. Kalau nak rate, aku rasa Shaolin Soccer lagi menarik. Tapi secara overall, not bad... ;)

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