Wednesday, June 29, 2005

A Final Ode For Merahzeous

A Final Ode For Merahzeous
For W. H.

Thank you.
For once upon a time,
You were part of my life.
Even if, all I have now is a blur-
Fragment of the mirror.

And though the glass may cut me,
As I hold it- nevermind.

To bleed will remind me that I am human.
That you are human.

Cuts turn to scars.
Scars are memories.
And memories last forever.

So thank you.

Thank you for the memories.

Majidah Hashim

-Magic could have not written a more poignant poem than this. Sorry, Magic. I republish your poem in my blog without your permission. Magic has captured every essence of my emotions in her poem. I am not angry, or accusing, or sorry for what have happened. I simply feel thankful that I was given the chance. To love and be loved in return. To feel the happiness, and the hurt. To know someone sweet and kind like him. I thank God for making him part of me.-

-Bolehkah aku merakamkan semua kenangan ni dalam memori? Tawanya, senyumnya, suaranya? Sebab aku tahu suatu hari nanti dia akan meninggalkan aku. Aku ingin mengenangnya sebagai orang yang membuatkan aku gembira selalu. My heart beats. Of tu et je.- My Diary.

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Friday, June 24, 2005

Differences of Love

Aku terasa lucu tengok gambar kat atas tuh. Betapa berbezanya konsep dating antara dunia Barat ngan dunia Timur. Member aku yang dah kawen plak bagi pendapat sendiri.

'This is a bad image of us (the Moslems).'
'Why?' Aku dah curious. Yelah, aku rasa ok je kot, sebab tunjuk betapa bersopan-santun dan beradabnya kalau gi dating macam couple dari Timur tu.
'Bcoz it shows that WE don't know how to love. It shows that WE only know how to procreate, without love. People looking at this photo would say that WE are incapable of showing love at all.'
'But if they show the behind-the-closed-door scene, then it's DISNEYLAND.' Dia mengakhiri pendapatnya. Aku tergelak.

Kesimpulannya, orang yang dah kawen (dia) ngan orang yang tak kawen lagi (aku) tengok sesuatu perkara dari perspektif yang berbeza. Memang interesting jugak.

-P/S: No comment! :p-

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Thursday, June 23, 2005

Me Against My Calories

Norah Jones' song playing in the background. Teddy bear sprawled next to my pc. A self-made card stuck on the glass panel. A list of tasks, completed.

I'll say. I feel like having blueberry cheesecake right now. But I'm on diet. I just took a cup of slimming tea (yucck!) to prove it. Oh yeaah, it's working alrite. Kalau tak, buat penat je aku ulang-alik ke toilet tengah2 malam.

It's all Jen's fault for my craving for blueberry cheesecake. Earlier, she emailed to me a few images of tempting-looking slices of cheesecake (NOTE: Delicious...)

- Nyum... -

Talking about Jen remind me that I have to find an alternative software to the one I evaluated yesterday.

'Carneyz, how's the software? Can we use it or not?''

'I don't advise so la. Mark (IT admin) told us that Microsoft is not going to support Foxpro in the near future.''

'I see. So we have to look for another software la?''

'Yup. Software that uses ASP. Besides,it only do basic functions. I asked whether it can generate auto sales report, or show plan layout, he said it cannot do so.''

'Can you find out for me?''

'Err. I'll ask Jen.' Jen, the solution provider.

The tea is working. My stomach is hurting, and so's my feet. Walking all day wearing high heels showing clients empty lots is not easy an task. How nice it is right now, toes curled, barefooted. I don't mind though. The more I walk, the more calories I burn. Except that my feet hurt. Darn it, the price you have to pay to feel beautiful (hehe, nobody ever said I look beautiful, so it's only sufficient to feel beautiful).

Hopefully, I mused to myself, when I move nearer to my office, I can go jogging 3 or 4 times in a week (wah cik kak! Bersemangatnyer nak kurus! @->-) Or play tennis. Somebody promised to teach me how to play tennis :) Kewl.

Yup. Badak biru on diet.

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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Congratulations - Maverix

-Selamat Pengantin Baru kat Mediha @ Maverix! Semoga berbahagia dunia & akhirat bersama suami :) -

To Aizuddin , sorry I 'cilok' ur pix. Thanks anyway!

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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Nothing to say again.

God. The amount of work my boss gave me.For 3 days, I had to attend training & seminar, and in between, I squeezed in some time to clear the tasks he set. Including coming into office last weekend. And yet, it's still mounting.

Weddings, weddings, and more weddings. Weddings are a great dilemma to me. You have to fulfill the invitation. No questions about that. Oh, but...

... to eat? or not to eat? How much to eat in order to avoid piling up on the weight after that?

... should I take chicken, beef or mutton? Two ladles of rice, or just one? Or half?

... oh, don't forget about the gift. What to give??

The best idea is to visualize MYSELF getting the gifts. However, right now all I can think is getting a. laptop, b. PDA. If only I have the money :p

My sister is coming this weekend and I promised to bring her shopping for 'all that striped blouses you want for cheaper price.' Not sure about the cheaper price part. But I think it's going to be fun meeting my sister again.

Ciao.

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