My Aimless Rambling

Yesterday Ainie and I went Xmas shopping (darn that parking card costed me RM10 and I've noooo moneeeyy) all over JB. We ended up buying garlands of tinsel, boxes of shiny balls, and rolls of ribbon to decorate the non-existing (yet) Xmas trees. All these worth RM304.16. Thank God I'm not paying it out of my account.

We picked up my portable mattress I bought eons ago, then dropped it at Jen's house. It's exactly my idea of being a full-blown nomad. I like being portable so that explains why I wanna own a laptop like crazy. Ainie let me drive the car (and gambled her life) and it's just not any car it's a manual car, so we had a maniac, laughing moments where she kept saying, 'Don't be nervous! Relax..' 'I'm not nervous, I'm laughing see?' every time the car jerked and I was desperately trying to balance the clutch (I wanna own a manual car some day seriously) / change gear.

I promised my friend to sleep at Skudai. Dear, ol' Skudai my bestest ever Skudai. Apparently, somebody committed suicide at the block across my friend's place. That explained why it's extra quiet last nite.

So this morning I was sitting on my bike, warming up the engine for another day of absurd illegal self-racing moments to work when I noticed the fuel indicator nearing 'E' level. I thought to myself, 'I have to drive slowly today so I don't have to stop by at the nearest Shell.'

When I was on the road, the thought striked me ridiculous that I had to say aloud, 'Since when can I drive slowly??' So what the heck, I just stopped by to fill the fuel, and drove to work at 120km/h. I punched in at 8.59am. Not bad since I left home at 8.40am.

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Sorry a thousand times

Sorry, I'm really really sorry.
Sorry, I couldn't be the person you want me to be
Sorry I stopped walking with you half-way
Sorry I left the wrong impression of me
Sorry for turning my back.

Sorry for keeping the distance
For I couldn't walk a step more
Our destiny does not cross here.
Sorry for the sadness in your heart
And sorry I couldn't possibly make it go away.
It's inside me too, I feel its presence each day.

Sorry is just a word
A consonant, a vowel, a sound
But if you wish to know in my very vein
The pain that makes my eyes water
The shock that flashes images in my head
Then the heaviness that choke my breaths
That is how I feel it.

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Speak-speak Grend-em.

Azlan has a terminology for annoying people / things.

Speak-speak Grend-em.

I'm dealing with speak-speak grend-em now. He has asked me to find one big Xmas tree. Last Saturday, I found one 8 feet Xmas tree, retailing at RM189. So I sent an email telling him 'hooray! Found one!' But 8 feet is not tall enough apparently!

Exasperated, I summoned the Internet, the Mother of all Info, to help me find in this Internet-forsaken state, where in the world can I get a place selling GIANT Xmas tree. After 3 hours later (and Ainie trying hard telling me that the other speak-speak grend-em insists on having live Xmas tree, not the artificial ones, mind you, his reasoning is because it's more practical. As if the tree dying after 2 weeks and having to be-deck the Xmas trees again & again is practical), somebody came and told me, 'Hey, try Ideal Collection.'

Heavens speak to me at last. Mother of All Info directed me to Ideal Collection and I managed to get a Xmas tree 15 feet high. Joy to The World. The only problem is it's RM2050.

Very the speak-speak grend-em.

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Di tasik lagi...

Aku terjaga dalam pukul 4 petang. Buat kesekian kali kesunyian rumah begitu mendamaikan. Nak sambung tidur tapi mata dah tak mengantuk. Aku bangkit.

Lepas mandi, aku terasa segar. Aku ke dapur, menuangkan air ke dalam mug dan berdiri di depan sinki sambil termenung ke luar tingkap. Cuaca mendung, macam dalam hati aku jugak. What a perfect day, desis hati. It reminds me of a world far away.

I knew exactly what I wanted to do. Aku nak bagi ikan di tasik makan. Macam suatu masa dulu. Ada satu ketenangan abadi bila duduk di jambatan sambil bagi ikan makan. Sebelum keluar rumah, aku sempat pegi buang sampah. Walaupun bukan rumah aku, tapi aku rasa prihatin tentang kebersihan rumah.

Melalui jalan ke gerbang UTM, aku begitu rindu pada tempat yang mengajar aku tentang kehidupan. Pohon-pohon rendang di kiri dan kanan tunduk memayungi jalan. Begitu cantik UTM, dan begitu sepi hati aku.

Cebisan roti yang aku lempar ke tasik disambar ngan cepat oleh ikan2 yg lapar. Kali nih ada ikan sembilang. Mesti tak lama lagi ada pertandingan memancing. Memancing mengingatkan aku ngan seseorang. Sedih. Sedih.

Ya Allah, I felt like plunging my hand inside me and pulled out my heart. Here God, please make it pure again! I have sinned, and I have lost myself. I beg of You, kembalikan cahaya iman itu!

Aku telah berdosa dan aku tidak tahu bagaimana menebus dosa itu.

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Pelaburan dalam ASB

Aku bercadang nak melabur dalam ASB memandangkan dividen ASB tinggi & menguntungkan. Daripada duit aku dok dlm bank cam tu je, baik la aku melaburkannya secara selamat. Tapi, baru2 nih member aku cakap pelaburan ASB diragui sebab mungkin bercampur ngan pelaburan haram. So aku pun gi lah portal Jabatan Kemajuan Islam Malaysia (JAKIM) untuk memastikan ke'halal'an ASB.

Soklan:

Assalamualaikum, ustaz saya keliru dengan hukum melabur di dalam ASB. Ada pihak yang mengatakannya halal dan ada pihak yang mengatakannya haram. Bolehkah ustaz tolong huraikan mengenai pertelagahan ini ?

Jawapan:

Merujuk kepada Majlis Fatwa Negeri Kedah melabur dalam ASB adalah harus. Tuan dinasihatkan supaya melabur dalam mana-mana institusi yang telah difatwakan halal. Mengikut fatwa negeri Kedah dan Perak hukum melabur dalam ASB adalah harus dan dividennya halal.

Insya Allah, lepas ni boleh la aku gi POS Malaysia amik borang ASB. To all my Muslim friends, kalau ada apa2 kemusykilan tentang hukum-hakam agama, boleh la melawat portal JAKIM :)

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