Happy Birthday Everybody!

12 April 2006.

Jen - waited until midnight to wish her mom 'Happy Birthday'. Mom went off to sleep already so had to wait until morning for the reply.

Ainie - did something until almost midnight but spent the whole day before that preparing something. Really special. For somebody. Really special.

Survivor - dunno what she did but she must have thought about 12 April too.

Me - Happy Birthday, that someone special. And Jen's mom. And Chairman too.

P/S: Romzi, Happy Belated Birthday :)

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Bye, Bye Hair

Last weekend, I spent my time at home watching tv, reading books and sleeping. In a simplified way, I spent the time being a lazybum who wakes up at 10am and stays in bed until 12pm. For a change from routine and past weeks totally out of home 7 days a week, this is rather cool.

On Saturday, after coming back from work, I was supposed to go to Bib's place because her niece is having a 1-year old party and I was invited to stay over. I changed the plan because 1. it was raining cats and dogs. 2. I was totally wasted from my late night business trip of which I reached home at 12.30am.

I like travelling. In my current job, I certainly love this part the most. Not only because I get to stay in 5-star hotels, but also because I get bored easily in a confined, no-movement environment. Tapi, sejak company nak cut cost by asking us to travel AirAsia, it certainly reduces the joy of travelling by 50% less. It's such a hassle to commute to LCCT (why didn't they have ERL to LCCT??), and AirAsia never uses aerobridge so we have to walk, baggage and all, to the end of the tarmac (why can't they park directly in front of the terminal's door?!) which is like, 300 metres away (haha, lazybums). Plus, the LCCT doesn't have Famous Amos outlet (I always make a point to buy a cookie or two from Famous Amos). They do, however have one of the best turkey & cheese sandwich around (RM 6 for an outrageously small sandwiches).

Ahad. Aku bangun lambat lagi, kemas rumah, tanak nasi, tumis sambal bilis, goreng sosej, dan lepas mandi, lepak di depan tv lagi sambil makan. Tapi petang tu tetiba aku terasa nak buat perubahan drastik jadi aku pun pegi ke salon gunting rambut. Amoy tu cakap, kalau gunting rambut RM12, kalau cuci sekali RM18. Hmm. Best gak tu. Aku pun cuci dan gunting rambut. Huhu, seronok rasanya bila dia tekan2 kepala aku dan lepas tu siap urut2 tengkuk aku. Pergh, marvelous!

Dah setel cuci rambut, dia tanya aku, 'Amoy, u mau potong rambut sampai mana?' Aku pun terdiam berfikir2. 'Sampai paras bahu la.' aku jawab. 'Haa? U betul2 mau potong pendek ke? u rambut panjang oo, dekat2 pinggang mau potong pendek ke?' Amoy itu terperanjat. 'Ha.' Aku jawab ringkas.

Dengan itu, dia pun potong rambut aku yang panjang tu sampai pendek. Kepala aku terasa ringan. Bila dia kasi aku cermin, aku tengok dan tersenyum. Muahahahha! Rambut aku dah pendek! Selamat tinggal rambut panjangku! Ahahahahaha!

Kalau ikutkan hati, aku nak potong sampai paras tengkuk, tapi sebab aku dah nak balik, risau pulak mak aku tak boleh terima dan terus pengsan bila aku tanggalkan tudung. Tapi...

Muahahahahahaha! Aku sungguh berpuas hati. Rasa macam best bila dah potong rambut.

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Thursday Nite - Away From Everything

'Can we have McD for dinner? Err, drive-thru? My mom suruh balik sebelum pukul 9.30pm.' Ainie grinned guiltily.
'Ok. Tak kisah la. I pun ada meeting pukul 10.30 mlm ni kat Mutiara.' Me.
'Kenapa you bawak payung?' Chairman.
'Sebab hujan?' I offered an explanation.
'Kat atas tu?' Chairman dengan sinisnya.
'A'ah, hujan dalam flight tadi. Everybody had to hold umbrella thruout (the flight).' Me dengan selamba smash dia balik. With all the kids crying and making gut-wrenching noises throughout the flight, I was prepared for full combat with Chairman. Ainie gelak.
'Besok korang keja tak?' Ainie. Something fishy about this fish...
'Keja. Naper?' Me.
'Besok kiteorang cuti. Hahaha! Long live Sultan Johor!' Ainie got her pleasure.
'Tak kisah la. Last Hari Wilayah I pulak cuti, u guys keja kan?' Smash dier balik.

Sampai Mutiara dan check in ke bilik. Dropped all my bags and let myself fall backward into the huge bed. Blissful. Nak mandi dulu ke, atau lepas meeting? Lepas meeting la, boleh soak up in hot water lepas tu. Happily watched Kevin Hill show, about a lawyer whose cousin died and left a baby girl in his care.

10.30pm. I made my way wearily to the Board room. When I entered, faces turned to me. Ah, the silent observer is here. I never talked during meetings unless I had to point out something. Thus the Silent Observer. Meeting started at 10.45pm and ended 11.45pm. Penat giler kan? Pegi reception counter to book taxi tomorrow and then went back to my room.

Mutiara JB tak se 'fabulous' macam Mutiara KL. In KL, there's a sliding wooden-paned window by the bath tub so I can watch tv while soaking up in the luxuriously warm water. The room is more luxurious, complete with jacuzzi. And the pillows were as soft as feather. Still, this is considered comfortable too and I should be thankful to be given the opportunity to de-stress in hot water-filled tub.

Lepas solat, aku buat notes sekejap, prepared tomorrow's outfit, and then snuggled myself under the comforter in front of the tv. I watched a Mexican drama and continued watching tv until 2am. Then feeling like I need to force myself to rest, I switched off the tv, set the alarm, and switched off the main light.

I lifted my hand and spread my fingers, studying them intently. I like now. The now after I had unknotted tensed muscle in the bathtub. The now when my mind was empty of complicated issues and focusing on simple pleasure. The now under this warm comforter, feet snuggly curled and wrapped in stockings. Dim golden lights from the lightings in the hall making my surroundings look like I'm trapped in time-capsule with this relaxed feeling, safe from the future and the past. The now when I am a nobody's girlfriend, sibling, daughter, granddaughter, niece, cousin, friend, enemy, subordinate, but myself and my own soul and my own heart. I like this moment. I've retreated into the deepest place in my heart where there are nobody else inside but me. My solitude, my fortress, my sanctuary.

With that I fell into a deep sleep, finally succumbing to dreamless slumber.

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Mr. Chairman, The Poyo Guy

Chairman was in the office today. Before anything is narrated here, Chairman made me so humiliated last week that I was extremely angry at him (or probably, he was a victim of my anger tirade due to my personal problem as much as he was the predator who loves to make me angry).

I have no idea why. We started off as good friends but ever since I moved to KL, and whenever I had to ask for his help in work, the experience left me feeling like I want to plunge my hand in the phone receiver, grab him by the collar and shout, 'That was important, ok?? Can't you help me as a friend if not colleague? I helped you, didn't I, you ungrateful Earthling??'

At the current moment, I like Chairman less than fire likes water.

Chairman, oblivious to my frozen expression, greeted, 'Morning, Carneyz.'

I grunted in reply. He stood, unsure of whether I had replied him or not. Then trying to make conversation, he asked, 'Is Zara due already?'

I grunted again. He was baffled, by his expression. Then, he went straight to the point,

'Can I use your PC?'

I tore my eyes from the screen to look at him in a disbelief, before finally breaking the ice, 'In front Im's place, there's a laptop.' I said that with gritted teeth which he did not take notice.

'Oh. Boleh guna ye?' He went to it and I rolled my eyes. 'Not under normal circumstance, usually we use that laptop to make coffee...' I said under my breath, but I didn't think he heard my sarcastic remark.

After a while, he walked back to my place. 'Can I use your email? Can't attach document on web mail la.' I almost shot at him, 'Apa lagi, you anak orang kaya? Can't you see I'm not talking to you? Humiliated me last time, buat don't know ye? Gigit baru tau!'

But he was putting on his most innocent and poyo face that left me wondering whether he actually knew how angry I was last week. Feeling resigned and because I don't particularly wish to be as unhelpful as him, I just shoved off the chair aside to let him use my PC.

Later:

Me: Poyo was here just now.

Ainie: Really? Lempang karang (??)
Me (enthusiastic): Lempang kuat sket, bagi pihak I.

(Both laughed evilly)

Apparently, I wasn't the only one annoyed with him.

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Minta Maaf Kepada Semua di Msjbox Gathering

Salam kepada sumer.

Di sini, aku nak mintak maaf kat korang sumer sebab hari tu mood aku tak baper bagus + aku ngantuk giler2 jadi aku tak bertegur-sapa ngan sesapa melainkan Juliana yang memang peramah orangnya, dan Kiki yang bertanyakan nama. Tu je. Aku sebenarnya agak keberatan nak pegi memandangkan indeks mood aku di paras paling rendah tapi aaaaaaarrrrrrrrrghhhh! aku terpaksa pergi jugak demi menjaga perasaan orang yang mengajak.

Half-way tu aku terpaksa pulak meninggalkan majlis dan tak balik2. Aku rasa bersalah plak tapi, memang waktu tu aku perlu bersendirian. Erm. Harap2 korang faham la yek. Plus, aku sememangnya tak baper gemar menyanyi sebab suara tak best, dan aku just nyanyi bila aku sesorang. Dan bilik tu bertambah sejuk, dan aku bertambah mengantuk gara2 tak bley tido malam sebelumnya.

Jadi aku pun buat keputusan meninggalkan korang ngan feel good moment, takut2 mood aku yang diam tu akan merosakkan mood korang plak. Aku berjalan2 sorang diri di tingkat bawah dan minum teh panas di Sushi King, barulah terasa lkurang tension sket. Itupun aku sememangnya lebih banyak mendiamkan diri sepanjang hari tu sampailah aku tido malam tu. Itu ialah aku di saat2 aku mengalami krisis dalaman :( :(

Harap2 klu korang carik awek, jangan la carik awek cam aku. Banyak sangat angin kus-kus dan krisis dalaman! Buat penat aje. Huahuahua! Ntah la. *mood dah jadi negatif balik*. Aku mengalami jiwa kacau skrang bila memikirkan aku kena balik bulan ni.

P/S: Dhekchiq, sowee tak de mood gak nak merasa kek coklat tu. Lain kali, kalau ada rezeki, tak de mood pun akan paksa diri makan gak. Mesti sodap kan? ;) Time kasih la sebab bersusah-payah buat kek.

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