Lirik Lagu Tiada Ertinya (Nur Fatima)

Lara tiada akhirnya

'Pabila menatap resah

Sepi hingga waktu berkubur

Sayu makin membuku di dada

Terhiris kalbu

Adakah inikan terus berlalu

Apa nilainya jika sangsimu mengganggu

Untuk kembali ke pangkuan

Dan bermesra denganku

Tiada ertinya di sini

Tiada ertinya berkasih

Semua telah kau bawa dan berlalu tinggalkanku

Tiada ertinya menanti

Tiada ertiya buatku padamu

Diri yang merindui

Apa yang ku mahukan

Bagimu tiada ruang

Yang berdiri dan memeluk dirimu

Apa nilainya jika sangsimu mengganggu

Untuk kembali ke pangkuan

Dan bermesra denganku

Tiada ertinya di sini

Tiada ertinya berkasih

Semua telah kau bawa dan berlalu tinggalkanku

Tiada ertinya menanti

Tiada ertiya buatku padamu

Diri yang merindui.

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Le Extreme Order

Adam's hand reached for the apple. I know exactly how Adam felt. It was stupid.

Aku rasa cam nak meletup semalam. Rasa nak 'basuh' manager2 sorang demi sorang. Kalau non-exec boleh pulak tak nak suruh overtime, sebab nak cut manpower cost. Exec sesuka ati je nak suruh keje beyond working hour?? Who invented this stupid rule anyway? Meh aku lempang sekali.

Next time, please dun bury the Xmas trees.

Pastu aku pening kepala jugak pasal housing kat KL. Aku ingat dah nak cuci tangan je, tinggal nak bayar deposit & masuk. Rupa2nya... Nasib baik aku ex-hosmet aku dulu, Kak Tini bagitau rumah lama dia nak cari hosmet.

What the fish? What the fish? What the fish???

Lepak la kat tasik, kasi cool down sket. Cuaca mendung ngan angin sejuk buat aku jadi tenang balik. Bunyi air & pemandangan sekitar taman UTM buat aku rasa cam nak tido pun ada gak. Tapi, aahhh... lega. Jauh dari perasaan marah yg membuak2 sebelum tu.

Tengah mengelamun tengok satu family nih bagi ikan makan, tetiba henset aku bunyi. Sebelum tu, colleague aku dah call, tanya pasal hal keja (aku nak lepak pun tak senang!). Baru je nak bertukar menjadi singa balik, tengok2 no. Kak Za naik.

'Ye Kak Za.'
'Kat belakang awak.'

Huh? Aku toleh dan tengok Kak Za ngan Yana tengah gelak2. Terkejut jugak la tengok dieorang kat situ. Wah, rupa2nya dieorang tau aku kat sini. Saja nak buat surprise la tu.

'Ai, mek. Tension lagi ke?'

Hehe. Tau aje port aku bila tension. Ntah. Terus rasa hepi & hilang tension bila dieorang datang semata2 nak teman aku lepak.

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My Aimless Rambling

Yesterday Ainie and I went Xmas shopping (darn that parking card costed me RM10 and I've noooo moneeeyy) all over JB. We ended up buying garlands of tinsel, boxes of shiny balls, and rolls of ribbon to decorate the non-existing (yet) Xmas trees. All these worth RM304.16. Thank God I'm not paying it out of my account.

We picked up my portable mattress I bought eons ago, then dropped it at Jen's house. It's exactly my idea of being a full-blown nomad. I like being portable so that explains why I wanna own a laptop like crazy. Ainie let me drive the car (and gambled her life) and it's just not any car it's a manual car, so we had a maniac, laughing moments where she kept saying, 'Don't be nervous! Relax..' 'I'm not nervous, I'm laughing see?' every time the car jerked and I was desperately trying to balance the clutch (I wanna own a manual car some day seriously) / change gear.

I promised my friend to sleep at Skudai. Dear, ol' Skudai my bestest ever Skudai. Apparently, somebody committed suicide at the block across my friend's place. That explained why it's extra quiet last nite.

So this morning I was sitting on my bike, warming up the engine for another day of absurd illegal self-racing moments to work when I noticed the fuel indicator nearing 'E' level. I thought to myself, 'I have to drive slowly today so I don't have to stop by at the nearest Shell.'

When I was on the road, the thought striked me ridiculous that I had to say aloud, 'Since when can I drive slowly??' So what the heck, I just stopped by to fill the fuel, and drove to work at 120km/h. I punched in at 8.59am. Not bad since I left home at 8.40am.

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Sorry a thousand times

Sorry, I'm really really sorry.
Sorry, I couldn't be the person you want me to be
Sorry I stopped walking with you half-way
Sorry I left the wrong impression of me
Sorry for turning my back.

Sorry for keeping the distance
For I couldn't walk a step more
Our destiny does not cross here.
Sorry for the sadness in your heart
And sorry I couldn't possibly make it go away.
It's inside me too, I feel its presence each day.

Sorry is just a word
A consonant, a vowel, a sound
But if you wish to know in my very vein
The pain that makes my eyes water
The shock that flashes images in my head
Then the heaviness that choke my breaths
That is how I feel it.

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Speak-speak Grend-em.

Azlan has a terminology for annoying people / things.

Speak-speak Grend-em.

I'm dealing with speak-speak grend-em now. He has asked me to find one big Xmas tree. Last Saturday, I found one 8 feet Xmas tree, retailing at RM189. So I sent an email telling him 'hooray! Found one!' But 8 feet is not tall enough apparently!

Exasperated, I summoned the Internet, the Mother of all Info, to help me find in this Internet-forsaken state, where in the world can I get a place selling GIANT Xmas tree. After 3 hours later (and Ainie trying hard telling me that the other speak-speak grend-em insists on having live Xmas tree, not the artificial ones, mind you, his reasoning is because it's more practical. As if the tree dying after 2 weeks and having to be-deck the Xmas trees again & again is practical), somebody came and told me, 'Hey, try Ideal Collection.'

Heavens speak to me at last. Mother of All Info directed me to Ideal Collection and I managed to get a Xmas tree 15 feet high. Joy to The World. The only problem is it's RM2050.

Very the speak-speak grend-em.

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