A Revelation of some sort.

God forbid Adam to eat the apple but Adam touched it.

I was standing in a pharmacy waiting for my friend to buy her monthly stock, I don't have to point it out anyway coz the only time a girl entered a pharmacy is solely for that purpose. That, or more makeup.

Facing the rack opposite the rack where the monthly stock is kept, my eyes scanned the items in interest and the interest heightened when I saw two items in colorful boxes and bottles standing neatly in a row.

I took a step nearer and narrowed my eyes. Hmm. Started counting the number of different boxes that stared wickedly at me. There was eight different types after all and I thought there's only one type that existed in the whole entire world. Apparently, I was the frog under the coconut shell all this while.

The first box has three types of fruit shown on it. F-ru-it flavored?? What the fish?? Why the fish they need to make it with tasty fruit flavors? I grinned. The second box boasted a more advanced feature - it's ridged. My fingers tingled, I wanted to take it and turned the box around for instruction. The third box gleefully told me it's com-fit. I snorted in laughter, but kept on reading the next one. The fourth one, which happened to be the most sell-able item, was the thinnest. The fifth one had a love-shaped devil printed on it, for devils know why. I will have to come back to the same pharmacy for the details of the sixth, the seventh & the eight box.

I leant nearer and stole a glance at the bottles of lotion beneath the boxes. That was when I broke off in loud laughter.

Heavens! Mercy on me. It's like being in a workshop! I was tickled pink by the time my friends dragged me out of the pharmacy.

'Aku ingat gapo la mek nih tengok sampai khusyuk sangat pastu terbongkok2 gelak. Malu betul jalan ngan mu! Toksey bawak mu jale lagi!'

Lirik Lagu Tiada Ertinya (Nur Fatima)



Lara tiada akhirnya
'Pabila menatap resah
Sepi hingga waktu berkubur

Sayu makin membuku di dada
Terhiris kalbu
Adakah inikan terus berlalu

Apa nilainya jika sangsimu mengganggu
Untuk kembali ke pangkuan
Dan bermesra denganku

Tiada ertinya di sini
Tiada ertinya berkasih
Semua telah kau bawa dan berlalu tinggalkanku
Tiada ertinya menanti
Tiada ertiya buatku padamu
Diri yang merindui

Apa yang ku mahukan
Bagimu tiada ruang
Yang berdiri dan memeluk dirimu

Apa nilainya jika sangsimu mengganggu
Untuk kembali ke pangkuan
Dan bermesra denganku

Tiada ertinya di sini
Tiada ertinya berkasih
Semua telah kau bawa dan berlalu tinggalkanku
Tiada ertinya menanti
Tiada ertiya buatku padamu
Diri yang merindui.

Le Extreme Order

Adam's hand reached for the apple. I know exactly how Adam felt. It was stupid.

Aku rasa cam nak meletup semalam. Rasa nak 'basuh' manager2 sorang demi sorang. Kalau non-exec boleh pulak tak nak suruh overtime, sebab nak cut manpower cost. Exec sesuka ati je nak suruh keje beyond working hour?? Who invented this stupid rule anyway? Meh aku lempang sekali.

Next time, please dun bury the Xmas trees.

Pastu aku pening kepala jugak pasal housing kat KL. Aku ingat dah nak cuci tangan je, tinggal nak bayar deposit & masuk. Rupa2nya... Nasib baik aku ex-hosmet aku dulu, Kak Tini bagitau rumah lama dia nak cari hosmet.

What the fish? What the fish? What the fish???

Lepak la kat tasik, kasi cool down sket. Cuaca mendung ngan angin sejuk buat aku jadi tenang balik. Bunyi air & pemandangan sekitar taman UTM buat aku rasa cam nak tido pun ada gak. Tapi, aahhh... lega. Jauh dari perasaan marah yg membuak2 sebelum tu.

Tengah mengelamun tengok satu family nih bagi ikan makan, tetiba henset aku bunyi. Sebelum tu, colleague aku dah call, tanya pasal hal keja (aku nak lepak pun tak senang!). Baru je nak bertukar menjadi singa balik, tengok2 no. Kak Za naik.

'Ye Kak Za.'
'Kat belakang awak.'

Huh? Aku toleh dan tengok Kak Za ngan Yana tengah gelak2. Terkejut jugak la tengok dieorang kat situ. Wah, rupa2nya dieorang tau aku kat sini. Saja nak buat surprise la tu.

'Ai, mek. Tension lagi ke?'

Hehe. Tau aje port aku bila tension. Ntah. Terus rasa hepi & hilang tension bila dieorang datang semata2 nak teman aku lepak.

My Aimless Rambling

Yesterday Ainie and I went Xmas shopping (darn that parking card costed me RM10 and I've noooo moneeeyy) all over JB. We ended up buying garlands of tinsel, boxes of shiny balls, and rolls of ribbon to decorate the non-existing (yet) Xmas trees. All these worth RM304.16. Thank God I'm not paying it out of my account.
We picked up my portable mattress I bought eons ago, then dropped it at Jen's house. It's exactly my idea of being a full-blown nomad. I like being portable so that explains why I wanna own a laptop like crazy. Ainie let me drive the car (and gambled her life) and it's just not any car it's a manual car, so we had a maniac, laughing moments where she kept saying, 'Don't be nervous! Relax..' 'I'm not nervous, I'm laughing see?' every time the car jerked and I was desperately trying to balance the clutch (I wanna own a manual car some day seriously) / change gear.
I promised my friend to sleep at Skudai. Dear, ol' Skudai my bestest ever Skudai. Apparently, somebody committed suicide at the block across my friend's place. That explained why it's extra quiet last nite.
So this morning I was sitting on my bike, warming up the engine for another day of absurd illegal self-racing moments to work when I noticed the fuel indicator nearing 'E' level. I thought to myself, 'I have to drive slowly today so I don't have to stop by at the nearest Shell.'
When I was on the road, the thought striked me ridiculous that I had to say aloud, 'Since when can I drive slowly??' So what the heck, I just stopped by to fill the fuel, and drove to work at 120km/h. I punched in at 8.59am. Not bad since I left home at 8.40am.

Sorry a thousand times

Sorry, I'm really really sorry.
Sorry, I couldn't be the person you want me to be
Sorry I stopped walking with you half-way
Sorry I left the wrong impression of me
Sorry for turning my back.

Sorry for keeping the distance
For I couldn't walk a step more
Our destiny does not cross here.
Sorry for the sadness in your heart
And sorry I couldn't possibly make it go away.
It's inside me too, I feel its presence each day.

Sorry is just a word
A consonant, a vowel, a sound
But if you wish to know in my very vein
The pain that makes my eyes water
The shock that flashes images in my head
Then the heaviness that choke my breaths
That is how I feel it.